Kinda stressed.  I know I should have gone through the consoler’s at scraft before applying to Wayne State.  They would have given me someway to let the school know that the reason I’ve withdrawn from so many classes was due to illness.  That the reason I am doing better this year as opposed to last year is because I am not balancing 2 jobs, high school classes, and college.  Now I just work and take college classes.  Maybe I should have waited cause now I am not even sure my transcript from this semester will be done to send in.  Basically they are not seeing me at my best but I don’t want them to know about my lupus.  I don’t want to have to go through all the special needs help stuff,it pisses me off.  The second I say I’m not handicap, I am not like them, people who really need help..that’s when I get sick and need help.  I don’t want the school to take me in cause oh you have lupus..that’s too bad, we’ll take ya in.  I just want them to take me in cause I belong there.  I don’t think a school would take in a student cause they have a disease but it’s just that feeling of hand outs…sigh.  I love Detroit.  I love the history of it and the resilience that city has.  I need to be there.  I just need to be.